HAPPY LATE BIRTHDAY

Sadly I am not near ANY family and missed out on being there for the celebration of half my families birthdays. I even forgot what day it was and didn't say "Happy Birthday" to my dear sister Haylea.

So here is a HAPPY BIRTHDAY to Chris, Brandon, Haylea, and Hanna (future sister)...

FOOF (aka SUPERMAN)

April 12, 1989


Chris is seriously awesome.

He grew from being the loner kid in the corner that was fine with being by himself and his ninja turtles to wanting to become Superman and developed into a friendly, social, jock who accepted and loved everyone. Man this kid is a constant example to me. We wrote each other on our missions and his letters really pushed me to want to be better and he continues to be a light in my life.

He will be getting married this August and I'll admit I am little jealous but can't wait for him to embark on this amazing part of his life!

Until I meet the man of my dreams Foof is my Superman who constantly reminds me of what is important in life and how I can do and become anything I want. I love you Foof!

BRANDON

April 20th, 1983

Brandon is one of the most giving people I know.

We grew up fighting each other. We use to go at it! At times we still do but these days they are more discussions. Brandon can debate ANYTHING with ANYONE but he will walk away as if the discussion never happened. He doesn't hold anything against anyone. He literally lives "what happens on the court stays on the court". Speaking of court, Brandon is a baller, he can make threes all day. One time we played on a team together where we had to plat 4 against 5 and thanks to his skills we still beat the team like 98 to 54.

Brandon would give all that he has to help out someone else. He is the type to just pick up the tab at dinner, to invite others to his house to stay when having a rough time, or to just give a ride when needed. He is an example of love and service.

These days Brandon is a State Farm agent and continues to travel due to his success. I love you Bro!

HAYBAYBAY

April 26th, 1992 This girl should be the older sister.

Even though I am 5 years older and technically she should ask me for advice I find myself turning to Haybay to help me in all aspects of my life. She has great common sense and really knows how to help people to think logically. She has some of the best dating advice, I just need to actually listen!

Haylea knows how to overcome the difficulty's of life and has grown so much in the past few years. She always seems to get back on her feet. I envy this girl in so many ways and wish that I could be more like her.

Hay is making her way into the State Farm agency and just passed the test to be a certified insurance agent. I love you Haybaybay!!!

CHRIS' HANNA
April 27th, 1990

This is Hanna, according to my nephews "Chris' Hanna". She is GGGGGREAT.

Hanna and Chris were high school sweethearts. Chris has been in love with this girl for years and has waited patiently for her to decide to marry him.

When I first met Hanna I thought she hated me and of course being as bold as I am I just strait up asked her if she did. She didn't know what to say to this crazy girl thinking something that never even crossed her mind. I don't know if it is possible for her to hate anyone. She is so sweet and loving. We even loved her so much that invited her to family things when Chris was gone on his mission.

We LOVE Hanna and are excited to have her in the family! She is finishing up in Math Education at BYU in Provo and will most likely be Chris' suga momma!

I love you Chris' Hanna!!!

Oh come on boys...

Boys, when do you become men? They say a mission is what helps you mature and grow. Is that true? I continue to be proven over and over again that that is not the case.

I just have to blog about this even though it may make things awkward if this guy reads this blog.

Last night I asked a guy to come help me out with a proposal because I have never written one and this guy seemed to be the perfect candidate. Plus he is cute and has impressed me time and time again. You could say I had a crush.

He seemed happy (considering he has made an effort to visit me at work and hang with me I knew that he would want to help ) and I was excited to have him over. So he came and brought a side kick cause I guess he isn't ready to roll alone.

When they came in I could sense right away that he didn't want to be here. Now I will admit I am much more sensitive to things like this, it's what I love to study. I observe and read into actions.

About 20 min into being here and with no progress on my proposal I watched this young man reach into his pocket, grab his phone and send a text over to his side kick. Wanting to be wrong I watched intently his side kick and within seconds he looked at his phone then looked up and quickly engaged even more into the convo. The sidekick was smooth but I knew in just a few minutes he would make the move to leave. All the meanwhile I was trying to make awkward conversation with the boy that was suppose to help me.

Recognizing that I was right I decided to just start pushing them out. I was done. I am the WORST girl to try and beat around the bush with. This is what I study and I am fully aware of people and their actions. Having ADHD allows me to be aware of numerous convos in one group situation. They left and I after venting for a little while I got a pity text from this boy apologizing for not being able to help more.

His side kick kindly stopped by later to drop off an example proposal to me and of course I had to call him and his buddy out. At first he lied and said that didn't happen but I in fear of being wrong and looking like the girl who reads too much into things I dug a little deeper and found that I had observed that situation perfectly. Side kick was shocked at my awareness level of the situation and informed me that his friend said he was not feeling well and had lots to do and instead of informing me of this used his side kick to get him out of the situation.

All this boy had to do was tell me he wasn't feeling well and couldn't stay long. Some of you may think I am taking this way to personal and being way too sensitive.

I don't think it is too much to ask that boys step it up and are honest with women. We really just want you to be honest. We can handle it. At least I can because really I'd rather hang with people that want to hang instead doing it out of pity. I really don't need your pity.

Sunday Will Come

Have you ever had a bad week?

What a dumb question, of course you have unless you are one of those kind of people that are overly positive and no matter what happens it's a great day (people like that are just TOO much, it is OKAY to have a bad day and enjoy your favorite comfort food).

I have had plenty of bad days, weeks and even months.

Watch and listen about the Savior and His bad week where He suffered for ours.




Though we may have had bad weeks, Sunday Will Come. Our Savior suffered, bled and died, but He rose again. Because of this we can rise above our adversity and though it seems like Sunday will never come, it always does.

I am so grateful for my Savior and all He suffered so that I may be forgiven and live again.

Easter Sunday I love and thank you for reminding me of our Savior Jesus Christ and that Sunday Will Come.

LOVE my new roomies

After a long week of new classes, teachers that try to scare, schedule changes, work, basketball stuff and cray girls yelling at you in class weekend nights with awesome roomies and chick flicks are WELL needed.

I live with five awesome women. People who make me wanna be better and that I can seriously just crack up with.

Good girl friends are not easy to come by but I have gotten lucky and I feel truly blessed!

Always an obstacle...

So the other day I shared with you three goals that I wanted to achieve this week...

1.) Finish the Book of Mormon
2.) Pass up all sugar offers except frozen yogurt
3.) Read "Leadership and Self Deception"

The first two are done and I am feeling good! Going off so much sugar has made me feel so much better, one step closer to loosing that mission weight (I know I don't have an excuse anymore its been 10 months!!).

But the third is now giving me a head ache... I only had 40 pages to go and I can't find the book ANYWHERE!

There always has to be some sort of obstacle when trying to achieve your goals...

A Friend, A Mentor, An Example

This is one of my best friends of all time. Her name is Paige and she is AMAZING!!!

When her and I first met I really didn't think we would become as close as we did. Again, I was CRAZY and Paige, she was...one of the most proper, reserved and well spoken girl I had ever met.

I think I was a little too much for her at first and all the girls in our apartment thought that we would get along the least but we proved them wrong.

Our friendship began with philosophical discussions in our living room where we discussed the deepest feelings of our souls, our issues with politics, boys, school, and mean people.

She taught me how to cook, how to clean, and even helped me to write better.

She inspired me everyday to be a better person, to be more educated.

She still does that.

I recently had lunch at our old spot which is now Costa Vida (oh, how I miss Bajio!).

We swapped stories about life and shared our concerns.

She was inspired today with her thoughts and feelings. She told me some things I needed to hear and helped me to get focused on the changes I need to make in my life without even knowing it. She didn't preach or give me advice, she just shared her experiences that resonated in me.

I left feeling happy and excited to continue on my journey here in Rexburg.

These are the type of friends people should have.

I love this girl.

I LOVE BYU-IDAHO

This picture is a good representation of me a few years back. This is Fall semester of 2005 at BYU-Idaho with a bunch of the girls in my apartment complex. Notice the other girls are leaning away as I try and force Whit to take a picture. This was pretty common. People let me do my thing but didn't always want to be associated with it. Including:

• Dancing on cars


• Hitting on boys constantly


• Jumping in the middle of any circle formed at a dance party


• Driving crazy when its snowing out


• Skipping class because I was tired from staying up all night


• Grabbing every ones attention by my booming voice


• Putting off any responsibility I had unless it was a social thing


• Getting the cops called on

I was CRAZY and had a hard time changing. I wanted attention, I wanted to be heard. I may have done it the wrong way and I was rebellious but deep down I was searching for something and I wanted to be good.

Even though I had no desire to be here I decided to come BYU-Idaho. It was the best thing I did for myself. Here is where I have found myself. I found amazing friends and teachers who helped push me to be better and eventually support me in one of the BEST decisions I could've made which was serve a full time mission in Argentina where I learned so much more.

Though I loved it here, I didn't want to come back to Rexburg in fear that I would be too old for this place. I headed for Provo where I thought I would stay but as time got closer to the winter semester I couldn't deny the spirit any longer and I came back.

BEST decision. I have grown so much since being here. I have found my niche. I have been able to turn my energy into good by being involved. I have had opportunities to lead in numerous campus activities. I even have been able to use my booming voice to MC shows and participate in presentations...

This is me now (don't mind the "mean face" like my sister in law said we are just concentrated on the comments of the people)...

I have a testimony that BYU-Idaho prepares you for the future. It pushes you to be better, to progress every day. But more importantly it helps you become a disciple of Christ.

I LOVE BYU-IDAHO

PULLING TEETH

I date...

A LOT.

I am still looking to fill that empty spot in the picture!

I have gotten good at asking questions, keeping the conversation flowing, getting rid of awkward silence. At times it feels like I am pulling teeth.

But I am getting SO tired of it. The same type conversations which usually end up with talking about our dating history somehow and how neither one wants to be hurt, blah blah blah.

Tonight I had a great time. It wasn't a date. Just a random meeting through a work dinner I had. At first I was impressed, then I was bored (he seemed dry and BORING, and I was PULLING TEETH for a little while there) but by the end of the night I couldn't get enough of the conversation.

We talked about ways in which we wanted to make BYU Idaho a better place. We added experiences from the mission and life that have helped shape our views. It was so refreshing. At one point I smiled all giddy just thinking about how great this conversation is and he stopped talking knowing my thoughts were headed somewhere other than his thousandth idea on how to change the world. Though I was a lot to take in with his excitement about all the things he wanted to do it was SO NICE!!!

Now, if you (the guy I was with tonight) is reading this. Don't get any ideas that like I am in love with you after one date. Just relieved to know that quality conversation still exist and that I don't always have to feel like I am pulling teeth!

To achieve or not to achieve...

This is me on my mission... I was crazy on my mission. Not like I was before where I was fun and danced all the time but where I was so focused and driven that nothing could stand in my way to achieving certain goals.

Since being home setting and achieving goals has been much more difficult. I don't set aside 30 min every night to plan or 3 hours all in one day to plan for the week anymore. Instead I just plan any second I can and try and write down the plans when I get a second.

So I have decided to set a few short term goals, easy goals to get me back on track. By Tuesday (before m first class) I must:

1.) Finish the Book of Mormon (30 pages)

2.) Finish "Leadership and Self-Deception"

3.) Pass up all sugar offers (unless its frozen yogurt)

I feel like these are some good achievable goals for this week. Feel free to ask me how I am doing on them.

HAPPY BDAY DIDDY

This my dad on his 50th birthday. He spent the whole day on the couch while WE enjoyed rock band and his birthday treats.

Today is his birthday and he is spending it in the hospital. Double hip replacement. In the words of my nephew Gavin "gdiddy got new hips for his birthday". He survived and we are just waiting to hear from him and how it all went down.

If only you all knew how amazing my dad is. He is the most loving and kind man I have ever met. If ever I am feeling down I can call him. He gives the best hugs and best advice. He thinks of others first and serves will all his heart. I love him so much and couldn't ask for a better dad!

HAPPY BDAY DIDDY!!!!

love,

Your Paingle

Sun Rise v.s Light Switch

My sister in law Lindsey (check out therhouse.blogspot.com) prepared an awesome lesson for her young women. Unfortunately only two showed up, little did she know that much of who she was preparing for was me...

Elder Bednar gave a talk called "The Spirit of Revelation". He says we want revelation to come to us like a light switch in the words of my SIL "BOO-YA". But really how revelation comes more like a sun rise. It takes time, line upon line.

This is hard to accept in our day. We are a generation of high speed, fast past life style. My nephew while turning on my laptop kept yelling "NOW, NOW, NOW" trying to command the computer to turn on as it was slowly booting up.

We want answers to come now and want them to be the answers we have already made up in my mind. But look at how beautiful a sun rise is.



What would you choose... A light bulb or this?

I am not perfect in remembering that the sun rise is the best especially when things are not going how I would like them to. Sometimes I wish I could just get the light switch turned on and know exactly who my hot hubby will be or where I will be when I graduate but I do know that Heavenly Father has a plan. The sun will rise and clear the clouds one day but for now I am going to enjoy the ride and just know that the sun will soon be shinning brightly from above.