First Kiss

I was 13 years old.

I was the new girl in West Linn Oregon, we moved in about 3 weeks prior. The new house was perfect, the best room being the theater in our basement, you know the kind that has dark walls with no windows and couches.

To avoid watching the Super Bowl on Sunday my dad and brothers decided to tape it and invite the young men and their leaders to come over and watch the game at our place.

I did everything I could to get invited to watch the game, in the end I don't think I was ever invited to watch the game I just made myself at home.

I distinctly remember trying to sit next to the cutest boy in the room, we are going to call him Ivan. I squeezed myself on the end of the couch next to him and began pretending that I was really interested in the game.

My left hand rested directly over my knee, available if at any moment Ivan wanted to hold it. As the game progressed I got MY game on with Ivan and got to talking and joking with him. Soon enough our hands were touching, then holding.

I remember looking up at him as we were talking about something and then it happen, he just LAYED one on me, he kissed me! My first kiss, right there with my brothers, dad and members of our ward in the same room. Sparks flew and for a second I thought we were the only ones in the room.

Feeling a little overwhelmed I whispered to him "I have never done that before" and while whispering I glanced up and saw the young men's leader staring down at me. What a great way to start my reputation in the new ward. News traveled fast in that tiny room and by the end of the night everyone had known that Ivan and I kissed.

The story gets better. The next day I went to school a new friend of mine ran up to me with fear in her eyes and asked "did you kiss Ivan this weekend?" A little surprised that news had traveled so fast but oblivious to what information was coming next I responded joyfully "yes!". I had already been dreaming about that kiss, thinking about the next time I would see him, most likely planning our future relationship, sounds like a typical girl eh?

She proceeded to tell me that he had a girlfriend who was in our stake but went to the other middle school. I was mortified. How could it be that my first kiss ever was with a boy who was committed to someone else. I felt sick to my stomach. Needless to say Ivan and I never kissed again and it took a long time before I could gain the trust of that girl.

A lesson you think I would've learned is that you should know someone better before you kiss them. Sadly it has taken many many years for me to learn that lesson.

Many more kisses and heartbreak stories to come! Join me on my journey to find that frog who will hopefully turn into my Prince.